So, a new job which I am loving, a house that is coming together and a family that seems to be bonding. I feel a little unstoppable. Yet we all all know that God is with us in the good and the bad. So why do I feel guilty? I am sad when overwhelmed and guilty when content. I am not gloating to anyone about the blessings of this season, nor am I feeling particularly arrogant. I am, on reflection, extremely content. Yet an aching and hole seems to be forming in my heart. Sometimes I feel myself frustrated at others who can seem to be ''choosing'' to stay in their frustrations, I am also sad at my slowing down of service to the church. Sinful hearts are quite annoying!
For an introduction the above is pretty shocking! what is this post about? Why is this relevant? To be honest, I have no idea why I wrote that, but it felt right to add. Maybe for context.......
I am in a new season of life, one where I am maturing into a wiser soul. (Not by any means the wisest!!!) I feel that all the battles I have faced make sense and hindsight is offering its wisdom in my newest phase of life. I can offer genuine encouragement to those who need it, I can empathise to those who grieve, I can support those younger than me and I can offer true and sincere servant leadership to those who need it. I feel close to God and I know as a certainty that He is there alongside me. This is exeperienced assurance of my faith and part of the journey in life that often gets ignored in books. We are told of ''battles'', ''refinement'' and more Christian cliches. From one season to another, I can see sense in those words but context would have been useful. How would someone being assaulted by Satan want to hear this? Where is the overarching theme of ''Love'' in life?
So, as a little series of writing, I will focus on the experiences I have had and how I feel closer as a result, I will include the grim details and hopefully any one reading can see humilty and Christ at the center of my writings. I will be using the Bible. I will be seeking verses in their context and I will not be going from one to another. I have some research to do but, Proverbs is pretty good at wisdom.
Anyway. From me to you. Have a great week.
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