I find myself tired pretty much all the time, I work full time, I parent 3 children, I husband a human wife and I serve a church. Whilst this is all self inflicted....it is hard work, it also gives you context for how tired I am. Physical fatigue can be one major issue in my life, as a result I find myself ''blobbing''. This is when I sit in front of a TV show and eat rubbish. I have no energy, nor motivation to do anything. What contributes to this, is it just the tasks or is there more to my weariness?
Spiritual fatigue can for me, be a big energy drainer. There is tons of research to suggest that as humans, we benefit in terms of motivation and lifestyle when we balance emotion and physical wellbeing. My relationship with God forms a key part of my overall wellbeing. I can feel restless, out of control and inadequate when I neglect my time with Him. Despite a maturing faith I still sin and I still live with the consequences of those choices. I am forgiven yet I still carry baggage and this impacts my life.
My wife and I are extremely close, we trust each other and are fully committed to each other, yet there are things I have done in the past that affect her reaction and initial trust in me. It is by no means her fault, the only person who is perfect and truly reliable is Jesus Christ. it hurts when the lack of trust is my fault.
The gospel message is great for salvation, a perfect, sinless Man. Dies as the sacrifice for us. As we repent of our sin, God see's His son and we are forgiven. Yet as people, sinfilled baggage and heavy burdens are always present. Biblical characters such as David, Solomon and so are all great displays of being burdened by their history and it affects how they lead and live. How do we move on from these? How do we feel the stregth from our Lord? I don't know?!?
So, what is the point? Well, with my identity in Christ and as I deepen my relationship with God. I am refined, I come face to face with my sin, and it makes me extremely self-aware. Knowing how bad I was, how bad I am and what I will continue to do is tiresome and, without understanding God's unconditional love, it could be disheartening.
Looking into Proverbs, Chapter 2 discusses the 'Moral benefits of Wisdom'. To me this speaks into the assurance that we can learn from each other. That listening to the wisdom of those who are gifted in this can help us maintain our relationships with other people and also help us to lessen the human burden we carry.
Another consideration is regarding how our appreciation for how undeserving we are for salvation, can fuel a motivation to serve our Lord more. Knowing that I am so unworthy of a God that did what He did....it displays the nature of God, Love.
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